idiot

What the heck am i thinkin? I told hubby #2 tonight that i will be movin out in a couple weeks. Thinkin that i would get some kind of reaction, but all I got was "where?" I guess it was a little shock to him and it needed time to sink in. I know this sounds weird but this is hard. Leaving and moving and starting something new. Someone that I have been with for seven years and now it's gone. Hubby #2 and I will be friends, but we all know how that changes. I just know this is hard for him because he has never lived on his own, is used to me handling everything, and it will be quiet. Don't get me wrong I am not pitying him because everyone needs to grow up, the whole thing is just weird. I know he will be fine and hopefully figure it out. In a bad way I feel I have enabled him to not be responsible. Man there are just too many feelings going on right now.

In the middle of the road...

So here I am in my 31st year of life. Soon to be divorced again, but alls well that ends so you don't have to put up with crap anymore. LOL anyway... I was 20 when I first got married and to a man about 17 years older or so. Yea I know the look you are getting on your face. Ewwwww old saggy balls...LOL. I should have listened to good friends and family when they would put on their nice face and say "are you sure you want to do this?" Then again I got married when I was 27 to a man I had dated for 2 years. And since I know you are wondering he was only 4 years older. Needless to say I went through a mess of things with him and supported him through it all. Then after waiting for him to get out of prison after 17 months, within 2 months I found out that he was cheating on me. He "wanted to see if the grass was greener". Whatever. Guess it all pans out because being the user crack whore that she is, she used him and broke his heart. So after picking my pieces up from that (with much help from family and good friends), I started to find myself again. Hubby #2 and I are still living together and will be friends. Divorce papers have been filed and court and finalization will be in August. I know it's amazing. But I am moving out in a few weeks (just found out today!!) And have started dating another man (who is awesome!!!) we met back in November and hung out for a couple of months then met back up in March and have started dating. He has been absolutely understanding of my situation and is very caring and supportive. I have even gotten flowers on my desk today just because he likes me and wanted to brighten my day. So there is a little history for everyone whether you wanted it or not. I am sure some of you already know the story.

So I'm here.....

Well here is my first blog. Just went to Jimmy John's for lunch and got the Big John sandwich. Which is deceiving because it's the same size as all the other sandwiches. I should be doing some work but what the heck I can take a break. So if you see this tell me what you think about my blog site. I am just starting and probably won't write anything ground breaking or profound but hopefully it will bring some thought and smiles.